Waking up feeling really lonely, even in my own skin, even with all of the people in my life and all of the family members around me, this Luteal phase loneliness is real. The feeling of being disconnected and being misunderstood is a common occurrence during this phase, the Autumn of our menstrual cycles. It’s a time of deepening within our emotional field, and with that comes a bit of darkness and sadness as we reflect upon the things that really mean a lot to us in our lives.
I inquired with my cards, because I love the tarot and I find that they always serve me up a dose of what I need, and my first card I pulled in relation to my Luteal phase and my menstruation and the way that I’m currently feeling was the Magician. This instantly reminds me of my own magical practices and alchemizing all of the things that I put together on a daily basis and who I am and what I believe in - that has a potent energy, and I have the power to harness it and make it into something very tangible and real.
The second card I drew was the five of swords, which is titled Defeat, and this card always allows me to be open to the Rising up and out of the feelings bogging me down, taking a sword (or a thought, maybe critical or harsh) and being strong with that thought. The swords cards connect us with our intellectual thinking, our creative mind, our analytical mind and when we’re in our Luteal phase, defeat can feel very, very real. I will be the defeater and not the defeated!
The last card was none other than... the Moon! The very, very emotional and sultry Moon runs deep within my veins (Pisces over here). There is a push / pull duality, an internalization, and this card is that immediate reminder to draw inward and reflect upon the nature of my Moon time.